Overendeavoring

Am I overendeavouring too much.. ?
Today got up late after having a back pain. back pain was severe.. couldnot even move around.so slept without completing my rounds..
After the blissful weekend when we went about doing three Vyuha programs.( a program where two to three bhakti vriksha programs get together).. All the programs were inspiring.. It was inspiring to see CAP stretching himself ,inspite of his bad schedule and health,to attend the programs and enthuse the crowd for reading BG.
We have introduced a new idea this time. Starting yesterday , we plan to do BG programs for the Gita month with everyday a chapter being read by a group of devotees in someones house. A new idea for the pleasure of SP and GM.
The response has been tremendous from wherever i have followed up. Sometimes by GM's mercy even a small idea works out..We just extended the idea of Damodar prgms to the BG week and it is doing wonders. More than 50 bgs sold within 2 days.. may not be great as per the other sankirtan distributors but then this is what we sold only thru contacts and without having to push.. Sankirtan mahayagna ki jai.. I have been trying to use my contacts whenever and wherever possible to get the books for the congregation at a cheaper rate so that for the pleasure of the devs we can sell more.
Coming back.. i tend to digress a lot..Was reading RNS views on overendavouring
"over endeavoring is when you take on so much service that you can not perform the basic instructions of chanting 16 rounds, sleeping well, attending Mangala Arati and hearing Srimad Bhagavatam" Its as if it was meant for me.All of them valid for me from the past five days..Have not shared with others.. Even find Vaishnava going thru it.. , called him and told him to rectify .. Hope he changes.. i should change myself too..
I think i should put myself a schedule only then it will help.Also need to speak to CAP on this.Param is off to Bharat Darshan soon..Helped him book his tickets.. Gaura and Adi on Tirupati trip. Sriranga on job search..
Also need to do some school search and soul searching :)
Yes forgot this blissful weekend was distracted by certain incidents.. Really troubled me hard till i thought "Enough is Enough"..Took up the mobile and called up CAP and got it clarified.. Can't imagine how much relieved i was after that..
lots to write.. but then i will end with the thought that when i come here tomorrow .. i will be better .. would have chanted off my rounds and would be able to write something good.. now its like " i keep thinking of rounds and at home keep thinking of office work..
"schedule seems to be the only solution "

gonna be a hectic weekend..

its gonna be a hectic weekend..
lots to do .. somehow these friday nights are when i get to think what all i should do to progress .. read Sachinandan maharaj's transcriptions on saranagati.net. specifically liked his Jagannath puri's description,as well as the script on the greed of the person wanting to get all the land and losing everything.. (he gained and lost everything at the same time.. equanimity :) ah aha).. was also touched by BTSwami's lecture during his last days..
Everything yesterday and today was pointing at introspection.need to really work on what i want.. mind is so so... hands automatically goes to type rediff.com instead of jpsvani or prabhupadavani..perhaps i would be visiting the rediff site more than these required sites.. priority boy and introspection ..somehow by GM's mercy have stopped moving to the p**** sites, will have to work on this.
When will a day come when i will chant without sleeping and with concentration at least one round.? perhaps i need to pray properly..(rather pray) have been though trying to chant an extra round religiously for GM.
already so late .. need to sleep and once again sleep with a good thought..
Lord , thanks for today .
Hope tomorrow will be better.. will be able to do something more..

will not be blogging for the next two days.. catch u up ( to myself only) on monday evening..

Na dhanam Na janam Na.

How beautiful this mind is ...
can read this third paragraph without winking a eyelid but how difficult it is to follow..

Had not blogged yesterday..will write the reason as to why couldnot take time out to write.. we were clearing one of the rooms.. donot have my cam. with me else would have posted the photos..now see this is digression.. i will write on attachment.. attachment to a room etc..in my next post..

i was just putting onto the blog the typical mindset.. to see the no of followings..
goes against the basic tenet of what i try to follow that doesn't matter if i donot have followers..
need to get above this.
remember the spiderman cliche "with greater power comes greater responsibilities"..
min u are not good ,but keep the things good so that someone can atleast practice and become good.
once again a typical mindset .. which i am writing against .. fighting against..see u start feeling that people are following you..

ha ha ha.. see the irony..
any way .. so be it and let me sleep.. need to catch up atleast three hours of sleep before ..

Faith cannot be strong if experience is not strong

How is this possible.. somehow right from this sunday the word "prapadyante" has been hitting left , right and center.. BG 7.14 and 7.15 has it.. these are the verses i took at spandan.. the english translation of this word is surrender.. both the places prabhupada has translated this.
once again came across this word today mrng in SB 2.7.47, here atleast it was surrender to devotees which seems to be more practical. Then once again read BTS lecture today "The nine fold process of full surrender".. don't know why this word had to come..
Don't remember where , but its said that HE gives whatever is required.. perhaps he is giving the sign that boy better surrender.. but then again yes .. surrender only possible if faith is strong.. surrender to any person/ any damn thing ( now some of you may not like this.. but doesn't matter if u like or not) is only possible if faith is there and the beauty is for a normal person like us faith only possible with experience. faith increases with experience.. its not a overnight process.. sometimes for some person it may take a second but for people like me .. u get some experience which builds the faith.
Ending today once again with a hope that tomorrow will be better and i will have more faith.. "So our faith can't continue to be strong if we're not seeing certain steps happening in our lives that are allowing us to keep on having that faith. And that is part of the role of the sastra to remind us, that is part of the role of sadhus to guide us and to show us, and especially mentors to provide the highest level of guidance. So this helps to keep us more determined that in despite of the leaves and the branches and the tree, to not to put too much attention in that while we are looking at the eye of the bird or looking for that very fine, fine goal that's accessible. Any questions or any comments that anyone has? "
Think over it ..

a typical wednesday morning

Its past noon now.. (just past now) and yet to work on official details today.
Have been on calls for org related work...
nothing specific yet.. just blogging to whirl away time and to keep a note of it.

Tomorrow will be a better day hopefully

Its already 10 .. need to call up some.. need to do some more things.. but i am planning to call it a day ( donot understand why they need to call it a day when it is going to be night .. seems this is also an idiom..)
Hopefully (this usage is wrong on gmat , but not otherwise) i will be more planned tomorrow and get things rolling.
Need to pray and sleep ...
need to follow the nursery poem first line atleast
"Early to bed and Early to rise
Makes a man healthy , wealthy and wise"

so me off to bed.. and lets blog tomorrow for more updates

kill time by blogging

I think its time that i plan myself ..
Just now Gaura called up to tell that there is a meeting. sometimes meetings are just messy.. doesn't solve the purpose , but then hoping it will be better as i am trying to establish and increase the communication level ..
We can try sometime and with the new organization restructuring , this assumes more importance.
lets see..

Lets blog

Everyone seems to be going for it.. i thought why not give a try ...
"modernity says just experience and just do or accept what fits into our comfort zone or what seems to be accepted by the fads or by the moment"
Trying to fight this by being focussed ..
Have been following the Mumbai blasts and the only long term solution seems to be echoing by the Bishops words
“History books will note that by the end of November, some people came by beach side in Mumbai to wreak violence while pilgrims from all over the world came to Mayapur in India to stop violence. We can achieve this by outliving them”, addressed Bishop William E.Swing on the Inaugural Ceremony of URI Global Assembly 2008.